For all the things my hands have held the best by far is you

Welcome to the World Sweet Kennedy

On May 1st, 2019, ( my regularly scheduled post day) my sweet Grand Niece( is that a thing?) was born. Welcome to the world Kennedy Lewis. My eldest niece and her husband welcomed a beautiful baby girl into the world. I planned on writing just about Kennedy and about the birth, but then we got home from the hospital so late and well, a lot of life has been happening my way regarding my own family and here it is, Mother’s day weekend. So there you have it, a mother’s day post.

I know that every mother and father when asked can remember the day that they brought a new life into this world. My niece Adriana and her husband Josh, newlyweds themselves eagerly awaited the life of their sweet girl to be born on that day. I’ve never seen someone so ready to be a mommy than Adriana. She didn’t even seem a bit nervous or scared, only ready to welcome Kennedy into life. Almost our entire family plus some of her closest friends and her mother – in – law crammed into her delivery room. It was typical us, a room filled with jokes, food, coffee, flowers, kids all over the floor, and anticipation.

Adriana’s labor had to be induced, due to some risks, and she was in labor for quite some time. We were in and out of the room, and at one point while in the waiting room, I had an opportunity to chat with Josh. I asked him, are you nervous? Are you scared? and he replied, ” a little” so wanting to relive those eager feelings, I asked, what are you most nervous or anxious about? To which he replied, “I’m nervous about the unknown.” I actually was a bit taken back by his oh so perfect response. I was expecting silly answers I guess, What’s she gonna look like, will I be a good dad, Will I know how to carry her, will her mom be ok? So, I really got to thinking about the unknown.

Faith is taking the first step, even when you don’t see the whole staircase.

Martin Luther King Jr.

The Unknown. How could have he know that the unknown is the scary stuff? Most first time parents have all the information they need. It comes from that book, what to expect something? Or these days doesn’t the internet tell you everything you need to know. If you are a first-time parent, don’t go searching, please.. I was only kidding. It really got me thinking over the course of this last week as I mentioned going through quite a bit with my own family.

If you’ve been following my journey, you might know we experienced some things within our home last year and I’m not ready to fully disclose, but it’s been rigorously trialing and filled with peaks and valleys. The hope that we have is found in our faith, and God’s promises. Plus, I mean, C’mon, I am raising two teenagers at once!

“My brethren, count it all joy, when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. ”

James 1:2-3 NKJV The Holy Bible

This past week, and I suppose Motherhood period has been filled with fear of the unknown, but we press on. We move forward, we forward march in full faith, with patience, trust, and HOPE. Then when we walk into the unknown, not with fear but that faith, we are usually surprised moments of joy, strength, knowledge, laughter, pain, healing, LOVE, moments of beauty, tenderness, silliness, arguments, compromise, brokenness, comfort, bonding, trust, companionship, friendships, relationship, togetherness, and this list could go on forever. Moments that had I chose not to walk into the unknown I could have never known, moments that the what to expect books weren’t ever capable of describing. Moments of bliss, heart bursting delight, that I could have never ever fathomed. So, Josh, I get it, the unknown is scary the unknown is unknown until we get there, and what we discover is that life hands us what we need when we need it. Life hands us more than we can handle bringing the need for God, family, and friends and support, and we never dreamed of the precious moments that have been tossed our way.

Adriana and Josh, now that Kennedy is almost two weeks old, I am confident that you both have experienced feelings you never knew existed. I am overjoyed for you both, I love seeing you light up with your precious baby, and Kennedy is a beautiful addition to our beautiful family and to the world. Protect her, love her, hold her tight, and do not be afraid. Make Jesus the head of your household and hold onto God’s word and promises, they are true and you mustn’t lose sight of your faith. Adriana, welcome to motherhood, the most sacred club I know.

To my children, I love you all so much and am blessed to be your momma. To my mother, Thank you, mommy, thank you for raising me the best you could, and thank you for all of the love you poured into and continue to pour into me, to my sister Anita, Congratulations on your new Grandbaby. Elijah and Kennedy are blessings from God, your family is incredible and a true testimony of God’s faith in you. To Daniella, you are an incredible mother to Lijah, we are so blessed to have you in our lives. To all of my extended family in-laws, friends, and mothers out there. Happy Mother’s day to you. I pray that this post finds you with Joy, love, and laughter. I pray that your hearts are light because I know for so many mothers day can be hard. My heart is with you all.
“Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort those who are in any trouble, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God. ” 2 Corinthians 1:3-4 NKJV Holy Bible

Kennedy, welcome to our crazy little tribe, I cannot wait to love on you and watch you radiate our lives. We love you.

Thank you for taking the time to read my mother’s day post, please drop a comment and show some love! Until next time – Stay up and Stay in Faith!

Still Dreaming, Aren’t You?

The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.

Eleanor Roosevelt

I have Dreams, I share about this a lot, so what. Some would say, hey you Stop Dreaming and Start Doing, Well guess what? I’m not going to stop dreaming. Ever! At least I hope not.

Do you Still Dream? There are so many things in my heart, my mind, and in my soul I dream of doing. Over the last few years, I’ve posed the questions to myself,do I dream too much? I am a woman of multiple dreams, and that makes me wonder about alot of things. Mainly , Why? I also ask are you just dreaming and and not going anywhere? To me, there’s nothing worse than regret, and feeling as if moments or opportunites have passed you by. I’ve done away with those thoughts andchoose to believe what’s meant to be will be. Moving on…

What are your dreams? I called my mother today before i started writing and asked, mom how old are you? She responds, 71 about to be 72. What a blessing! ( Check out this old article about my mom from 2 years ago) And I proceed to ask her, Do you still have dreams? After going round for a few minutes about actual dreams like when u sleep, I say No, Like Dream Dream.” Are there still things in your life you want to accomplish?” I tiptoed to the questions, because believe it or not, a few years back before the stuff in the article posted above happened, I kinda think my mom stopped dreaming, but that’s just my opinion. (Sometimes, we’re scared to dream, or at least acknowledge dreams, because of fear. Fear of failure, fear of getting uncomfortable, or just plain and simply not wanting to move.) To my delight, she answered. ” Yes! I have many things I still want to accomplish.” I almost cried, I want her dreams to come true too, and I have dreams that involve her too. I asked her to write them down, and perhaps share with me at a later date.

I’ve come to a peace in my life. Acknowledge your dreams, write them down, keep working ( somebody’s gotta pay the bills) and take steps to pursue your dreams, one step at a time, one dream at a time. ( If you’re lucky, sometimes the dreams are wrapped in each other and multiple can happen at once. )

Sometimes , we get stuck, I know I have. I stumble across doubt, and fear, and stupid realizations of work, and paycheck to paycheck stuff like that. I pray, and God to fill me with contentment, and joy, which i have, but I still dream. I don’t really dream about things, I dream about actions, jobs, experiences, creating memories, and I dream for others too. There has been times where my dreams a crushed, or they happen and weren’t really all that to begin with, but we pursuit on. We live to fight another day and we keep dreaming and walking towards those visions. I believe God places dreams in our hearts to accomplish the steps that he wants us to take in our journey and some of those dreams simply give us delight, however God always sees the heart and what it is that we seek.

Delight yourself also in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.

Psalm 37:4 The Holy Bible NKJV

I bring that up because I speak of direction, avoidance of being complacent, and guidance from above. These are dreams, things we want to accomplish. Some dreams that I have I wonder about though, some come and go, and some will not leave. For example since I was a kid I’ve always wanted to be a DJ. Like as a kid, the kind that worked inside the radio and played my music. The folks that told me what song was next so that I could get my tape ready to record. As an adult, I still dream of being a DJ. Both on the radio, and the kind that sets up and plays music or people. I like how the DJ just creates all kinds of memories and good times. Plus I really love music.

I do have to check myself sometimes, when my heart goes astray and my desires become many and strong, I have to check myself and stay in that delight of the Lord in prayer and supplication.

I believe in me, and I believe in my dreams. I dream of many things, I dream od dancing, I dream of writing ( guess what I write) I dream of having published books, I dream of inspiring others, I dream of graduating college. I dream of having grandchildren ( not yet though) , and I dream of growing old with my husband. I dream of being in ministry, I dream of singing my heart out, I dream of educating others, and I even dreaming of acting. I dream of seeing the look on kids faces the first time we all get on a plane, and I dream of seeing their dreams come true, whatever they may be. I dream of friendships, of heartlfelt moments, I dream of starting companies, and employing others. I dream that my husband and I will have our dream place, one we can run , we want a cafe. We want to serve wine and cheese and some yummy delights. We dream of offering others a quaint place to relax, we dream of vacations, and breathtaking views. I dream of being a poet and sharing my stories. I dream of serving others, and entering heavens gates, I believe in my dreams, I believe I am living my dreams, Aren’t You?

Some dreams came straight to me, my husband, my children, never could i have fathomed. I guess that’s what the bible means when it says he is able to give us more than we could Some of my dreams have come to pass, I’ve learned that not all dreams are meant to last. Some dreams take to you to the next place, some dreams are forever and some just to meet the next face. Dreams are a gift, and we should not have be afraid, we should never stop dreaming, I’m still dreaming. Aren’t you?